A Day in John's Life

Up not early enough. Hot milk with instant coffee and cocoa. (Masturbate sometimes) Shower, shave, dress.

Public transit to work- 1 hr.

Walk four blocks to office, run up stairs.

Starbucks at 9:00, half-decaf doppio machiato with work buds.

Lunch at any of a number of local places, generally Japanese, Chinese, Mexican, or Burger.

Public transit home.

Kids "Daddy Daddy Daddy" makes my day.

Kate either makes my day again or takes me down by whether she seems happy to see me or not. I know it's more about how much trouble the kids have given her but it's hard not to be affected.

Kids either already ate, eating now, or hungry. They're generally messy and wild, tired from the day and happy to see daddy.

Play with kids, try to talk to Kate over dinner, kids interrupting every second word. Glass of wine.

Bath time. Hard to get them in, harder to get them out.

Bed time, pajamas and stories. Kate takes Boy to get him to sleep, I tuck Girl in and read stories or else tell stories for a few minutes. Put "Story CD" on the boom box in her room for stories and songs to lull her to sleep. Usually get a "I'm thirsty" at the beginning but then usually she's out. Generally an easy and not too drawn out bedtime ritual. She's (almost) never scared or difficult to get to bed.

Kate is watching TV holding Boy. Eventually Boy goes down and TV show is over.

Either sleep or 23 minutes of wild sex.

Repeat.

today was okay

i got outta the house at 0630. muaha! so semangat. then went to pick haikal up, had breakfast at syed, then we went for class. classes today was bloody boring. especially principles of public relation. 3 hours straight from 1400 to 1700 hrs. haih!

at the parking lot, as i was heading towards my car, i saw asma. we said hello and whatnots. she said, i'm sombong. haih! asma, saya bukan sombong, tetapi saya tidak mempunyai masa yang banyak. saya ada pelbagai assignment yang perlu disiapkan. hope you'd understand. it's not that i don't wanna call you but time does not permit me to even have a friendly chat with you cause i know, when we get together, we have to at least spent 3 hours of talking non-stop. so how like that? one of these weekends la okay? i hope so. muaha!

haikal is here. he's sleeping over. so kesian him, his proposal, he had to do it alone. the other two of his groupmate all got problem. so kasihan him!

hezzy! i'm still waiting for your call! call me la faster!

Well...It's about ten to three, and I'm extremely tired. I got home last night from Bryce's around 12:15...Well, that'd be this morning, I guess? And than I woke up at like, 11:30 this morning. Which is a lot of sleep for me. But that's okay. I had to go to Byerly's, and than I went to Target to get Easter presents. I feel bad, I bought my mom and step dad a present, but I had to use my mom's own money since I didn't have any! :/ Talk about bad. Heh.

I have to clean a lot today, I think we're having people over tomorrow for Easter lunch/brunch/dinner. I have to clean my room, my bathroom, the laundry room, and a bunch of other things too. I also have to do my english homework, and work on my Speech, too. Blah.

I think I'm getting a cold. That, or, my allergies are coming back. Phoeey.

Anyway, I have to go. If anyone knows of a good mini-golf course around here, lemme know! Thanks.

Here's my score on the Viagra Erectile Disfunction Test

1. How do you rate your confidence that you could get and keep an erection?
3 Moderate
Usually I think I'm fine, but during phases of foreplay where I don't receive direct stimulation or where the stimulation is a bit off, I do go partly or sometimes fully soft.

2. When you had erections with sexual stimulation, how often were your erections hard enough for penetration (entering your partner)?
4 Most times (much more than half the time)
Sometimes though I have to stroke myself back to enough firmness to enter. If I've had a drink or two this is much more common.

3. During sexual intercourse, how often were you able to maintain your erection after you had penetrated (entered) your partner?
4 Most times (much more than half the time)
Sometimes this is difficult, especially if alcohol is involved, I have an elevated body temperature from the shower, or if it seems like she isn't having a great time.

4. During sexual intercourse, how difficult was it to maintain your erection to completion of intercourse?
4 Slightly difficult
Sometimes I'm just having a great time but then it seems like I'm getting less likely to orgasm.

5. When you attempted sexual intercourse, how often was it satisfactory for you?
4 Most times (much more than half the time)
My dissatisfaction is either if I go soft or if she seems bored.

Your score is 19

This quiz can help you and your doctor figure out if you may have erectile dysfunction (ED). If your score is below 21, it may mean you have ED. Your answers indicate signs of erectile dysfunction.

So it seems worthwhile to give Viagra a try. I just made an appointment with the urologist for 3:45 next Wednesday.

I'm not one to blog lyrics, but this is just one of those times...

Is there nothing I can say
Nothing I can do
To change your mind
I'm so in love with you
You're too deep in
You can't get out
You're just a poor girl in a rich man's house
Yeah, baby, I'm crying over you

Don't you know promises were never made to keep?
Just like the night, dissolve in sleep
I'll be your savior, steadfast and true
I'll come to your emotional rescue
I'll come to your emotional rescue

Yeah, the other night, crying
Crying baby, yeah I'm crying
Yeah I'm like a child baby
I'm like a child baby
Child yeah, I'm like a child, like a child
Like a child

You think you're one of a special breed
You think that you're his pet Pekinese
I'll be your savior, steadfast and true
I'll come to your emotional rescue
I'll come to your emotional rescue

I was dreaming last night
Last night I was dreaming
How you'd be mine, but I was crying
Like a child, yeah, I was crying
Crying like a child
You will be mine, mine, mine, mine, mine, all mine
You could be mine, could be mine
Be mine, all mine

I come to you, so silent in the night
So stealthy, so animal quiet
I'll be your savior, steadfast and true
I'll come to your emotional rescue
I'll come to your emotional rescue

Yeah, you should be mine, mine, whew
Yes, you could be mine
Tonight and every night
I will be your knight in shining armour
Coming to your emotional rescue
You will be mine, you will be mine, all mine
You will be mine, you will be mine, all mine
I will be your knight in shining armour
Riding across the desert with a fine Arab charger

5 Vessels down the heart
I will never forget us, four in a row.
I've yet to let you all know how much this meant.

OK, today's Literature on-stage play was embarrassing
Clara, Marns, Charlotte and i were to be dancers
More for humour sake, like to Mr Bangs William Hung piece
So we did last minute practices and only had 3 hours of class
annnnnnnnnnnnddddddddd the sound system backfired

So it ended up with us four, 2 at each corners
Standing beside the play like 4 blue pillars.

What's worse was i was shaking; Like a polaroid picture. * lol
And what's..... WORSE was i could see char's beads of sweat
So basically we had chitchat on-stage. Instead.
Hahaha. OK, Whatever Joleen Loh.

But. I have to say this.
I really enjoyed the improvisions.
Had helluva great time in the last minute plunge
It felt like there wasn't a need for double-checks.

I'm swindled and smiling.

Oh, but Whitney really did a fantastic job!
And this girl from Elizabeth class, that i don't know the name
No? I thought she should have been mentioned too!
I liked the red phone booth

OK. I don't like my classroom anymore.
Firstly the impossibly-moveable Marie house Flag took place there
And now there's the
see-thru-wall-to-Telok-Blangah-flats-with-praying-man-orange-light
incident. Where it first looked like it prayed, then leaned forward
And these are my classmates, i should believe. Maybe.
Gwen, to name.

There's room-painting tomorrow
So there'll be that, and some last few bits of furniture
And my room will be a perfect getaway.

// Chaka Kahn - Through The Fire
One out, another one in. Maybe, stay for a change.
To you all. I feel so loved. Thanks
Existance changes everything.

Bushwhacked

I went out this morning to one of the local garden centres to buy a box of calcified seaweed. We have an infestation of nematodes in the wormery which means it's too acid and calcified seaweed is the recommended means of raising the pH. Bloody expensive it is too. ?7.25 for about a kilo. We're supposed to add a handful or so to the wormery every couple of weeks to keep the acidity down. Unfortunately I think that means that the so-called "free" compost the wormery is supposed to produce is in fact more expensive than simply throwing out the kitchen scraps and buying bags of compost like we used to. But this is by the by.

Roadworks in the area meant that I was diverted out of my way for a couple of miles and I ended up taking a detour through parts of the outskirts of town which I haven't seen for some time. Well. Let's just say that recent "environmental work" by the local council has involved a cast of thousands armed with chainsaws and an ecosystem which has been obliterated all the way back to blue-green algae. And I'm not so sure there's much of that left either.

Miles of mature hawthorn and blackthorn hedges have been cut down to no more than a couple of feet high or, in some cases, ripped up altogether. Hundreds, if not thousands, of semi-mature trees have been hacked off at ground level and their trunks and larger branches stacked in piles 6 or more feet high with the shredded and chipped remains of smaller branches left littering the roadsides.

The Bush administration would no doubt have a collective orgasm over the environmental devastation caused and it's not even as if there's any oil in town outside of the supermarkets.